Artist seeking...

I know it's been a while since I last sat down to offer any kind of update, so here we go.

I have been thinking about my art and what it means to me and what I wanted out of it. After spending some time thinking back to when it all began and what it meant to me then I realized a few things. 

I can remember asking God to make me an artist, to make it my passion as well as my obsession.  I asked him to allow me to do my work and share it with the world.  This was some 25 odd years ago, but I remember the conversation clearly.  Now, as I was walking along the other day taking in the beauty of the light filtering through the trees and the birds singing in the wind, I realized something.  It hit me like a ton of bricks, it was such a mind blowing realization that I could of fallen over.  I had become exactly what I had asked God to make me.  I am an artist and I am passionate about it and I do tend to concentrate almost every waking moment to the ideas and the possibilities of my art.  I have been granted what I had asked for.

The question I have is now that I am what I have asked to be, what is the return I am to offer in exchange?  I donate artwork on a regular basis helping the communities around me and offering any assistance I may be able to give.  But is it enough?  Do I now have responsibilities that I am now aware of?  Should I have a profound message that I am trying to get across to the masses?  I'm not sure.

As opportunities come up I try not to pass any of them up, not knowing when the right one at the right time will lead me to my ultimate destiny.  Of course, that means I spend a lot of energy on stressing deadlines and commitments I put on myself.  But, I wouldn't change for anything.  I only pray that I am making the choices that will lead me to happiness.

I guess only time will tell......So, until next time, hold your head up high and take a look at your life and find out if you are where you want to be. All it takes is a step in the right direction.